It will come in waves Thats what people said And I understood in abstract what they meant That it will wash over you Unrestrained and with no warning It wont be every hour Everyday Or Every Week But when it comes no dams can stop it No walls you can construct will halt its flow Like breathing It just is until it's not What I couldn't comprehend What nobody can describe to someone that hasn't felt it He says trying to put it in words Is the helplessness The sudden jolt from dreamland to nightmare A blow that knocks the wind from your lungs as you sit alone Tears that come in the middle of a sentance and steal the words from you mouth Needing someone close A hug or just a touch but never having the courage to ask When an unreatlated movie scene breaks your resolve for no logical reason Or that song lyric you never really got becomes the centre of your day The energy you spent being ok A charred log fading to dust leaving nothing behind to bring you back Broken and lost Crying in the light Useless
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I know I have no right
That our worlds have spun so far
Maybe you should just be legend
A wish left on a star
But I just want to talk
As simple as that sounds
Nothing more or less than words
Just us, just now
To hear about your life
Listen to who you’ve become
Share another moment
Even if only one
For of all the things I regret
And I’m a man of many sins
My part in our exile
Stands above all other things
I wish I could listen to the logic That the words I repeat would somehow break through When the voice in my head is deafening And age old doubts are suddenly new Through the cloud of water in sightless eyes I beg and plead for reason to rule That belief may grow in simple facts And make my demons slightly less cruel I want to shout out loud the fears I hold Set them free and see them breathe Expose the weakness my mind inflicts And pray that life brings silent reprieve
I once waited and then waited some more
Till days became months and our story became lore
But as that time passed and life moved on
The light of your memory no longer shone
And yet still you lingered not willing to leave
The footprint of a thought whispered on a breeze
A name sometimes spoken in passing or tale
Would find a path to my ear never seeming to fail
At first it was a dager drawing silent blood
The bitter dependence of a unforgiving drug
Till the moment came when acceptance was found
I finally believed we were no longer bound
Miles from where I stood vows were spoken
The last vestige of hope now battered and broken
But as with all things the only constant is change
So with the lastest whisper even those memories fade
No longer the meloncoly childish belief in what was fated
Simply the thought of that smile for which I once waited