Tag Archive: fear


Don’t smile on demand

 

 

 

 

 

I remember being asked to smile
When the clouds in my head were full of rain
And wondered at a life so vile
That too often kills beauty with pain

Why then should I smile when this is life
Surely my tears are far more suited
To a world like this filled with endless strife
And the misery in which its always rooted

So don’t smile just because you are asked
Or even cry because it’s expected
Be how you are to the world unmasked
For all you can do is be your world reflected

 

 

 

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Simply Repeat

 

 

How long will I stay and simply repeat
The same day I have lived only broken by sleep
A question I ask more often than before
As I stare unflinching at an ever open door
Too many options and choices to be made
Indecision and fear the reasons I have stayed
For this is what I know and have for so long
That before now fades like the end to a song
Is now then the time to cast off the chains
Run for the exit before nothing else remains
Give life a chance and everything outside
That till now was here and always denied

Too Long In The Dark

I wanted to believe
That hope didn’t lie
I was never deceived
True love couldn’t die
And for all my failings
Though I know I’m blind
That smile sent me sailing
But that smile isn’t mine
In a second I was torn
Not in choice but in torment
I saw my hope as forlorn
What still remained of fate spent
So what then is left to say
When ones dreams are broken on rocks
And no matter how hard you pray
Your face will not hide the shock
Left alone just too long in the dark
What sparks now and then never makes flame
And though we may reminisce about the start
It seems that time will never come again

Bring the anger let it be rage

A physical pain I know I can tame

Not this empty sense of blind despair

Broken from within unable move or care

Show me blood on a wall and shattered bone

The darkness I left but can still call home

There I can breathe, understand and exist

Here I am lost because of what I miss

So easy to slip back and just cut off

But I know I can’t no longer am I lost

I shall embrace what I broke

Own the folly of a loving hope

Maybe just maybe only hurt for a time

Grateful for the smile I know is only mine

stolen hours

Did it show or was I able to hide

Beneath the laughter behind the smile

Neither forced or in anyway untrue

A feeling I know well when I’m with you

The moment my heart broke in agonising pain

A moment I would live a thousand times again

It was always a folly of my own invention

A pain I caused so will never mention

A scream that deafened contained in my head

Threatened to overwhelm refused to relent

Ignored by shear will shut down at its source

To enjoy the hours that long consumed my thoughts

I have never known such a smile and eyes that laugh

Able to lift my soul in an instant obliterate any shadows I feel cast

For those hours I would sacrifice all

Without thinking I would happily fall

Because at its core I know only this

Those stolen hours are a granted wish